Going Crazy

So yea, I am going crazy. The homework assignments that I have this weekend are total torture!! It is going to take me all day everyday this weekend to finish. Abe had to get a couple days off work just so he could work on it. And he'll still have to try to finish Monday before class. I keep trying to talk him into taking off the last day too because it's going to be even crazier to try to finish if not. I really don't know how to begin to explain the homework and illustrate hoe awful it really is. Just take my word for it. It's its cruel. But I don't have any more time because i need to get back to working on it.

Sick TV Cards

Well today I wasn't feeling well, so I stayed home from school. I am kinda afraid, because I can't make up whatever they draw in class. But what could I do. I did get some chores done though, so today wasn't a complete waste. Last night I finally watched the season finale of Criminal Minds and CSI:NY. I think CBS has to kill someone off every show as a quota, lol. When I first watched the ending of criminal minds, for some reason I thought all the cars with the people got blown up, but I realized later that it was just one. I read a few blogs with people's theories on who it was, if they'll die, etc. I can't even guess, however I thought some of the theories could be very much possible. Yesterday was Memorial Day and we had a family cookout. It was nice. We all ate out on the back porch, which meant a lot to me. I fixed it all up for my mom's mother's day present. So I want my mom and everyone to enjoy it. My husband and I also played cards with my folks after. We don't get too many opportunities to all play with my husband's work schedule, so it was nice. My husband went to school, and I am anxious for him to get home so I can find out how much I will regret missing today. And we have some major homework due this Thursday, so I'm sure we'll work on that too.

Penny ante poker and Grandpa

Well tonight I played penny ante poker with my Grandpa, parents, and my aunt and uncle. We all live on the same street. My sister also has her own place on the street too. This is my families street, haha. My Grandpa is having a hard time right now. He lost his wife last October and now he is starting to go blind. He is often lonely and is too proud to really talk about it. He has broke down and cried in front of my mom a couple times. It breaks my heart. He also has issues with my grandma's kids. When she died she left her son as the beneficiary. Since Grandpa was short on money and she didn't have a ton of family here there was no funeral. We did have a pot luck remembrance dinner though, and she was cremated. Everyone assumed that life insurance money would go to the funeral home to cover the costs of cremation and then the money would go to the beneficiary, including the funeral home. But it didn't. And the son won't even give my grandpa any of the money. My grandpa needs it to pay her hospital bills and the cremation costs, but they are just greedy. It really pisses me off that they are screwing my grandpa over like that. He loved my grandma dearly and would have given her the world if he could. Some of my family had issues with her, she was the step mom and had her own kids that my aunts claim she treated better. I didn't really see any of that, just because it happened before I was born and when I was tiny. My grandpa is just the sweetest man ever. I really wish I was better off so I could help him more. But he really enjoyed playing cards tonight and so did I.

So you think you can dance

So you probably noticed the dancing videos I put up. Well I was reminded of them because Jimmy had a dance on his page which made me think of the show and my favorite dances. Well, last night was the first night it came on this season. I didn't see it when it aired, but I have watched it through my wonderful DVR. So I am really excited about it already and it was just auditions. There were some really awesome dancers that I was moved by just their audition piece. And they're were some tear jerker moments too. For instance, there was this girl who was visually impaired, she literally could barely see in front of her and had to have someone help her on the stage. You could tell that she really loved dancing and was pretty good at it. It just wasn't good enough for the show. She lacked some pop in it. But they were all really supportive of her and Mia Michaels was balling her eyes out. It was very inspiring and hopefully she will kept dancing. Of course the next few weeks will be all about auditions, but they are fun to watch. And for those of you who watched the previous seasons, Sex came back again. Its almost sad to watch him, I mean I'm sure he is just acting, but it really seems like he thinks he could get on the show, and its just sad.

okay one more that i really love

One of my favorite dances

Iron Vampires

So I went to the movies Tuesday after class and saw iron man with my hubby. I wasn't looking forward to it, but I actually really liked it. I also saw a preview for a movie that I totally wanna see. It is called Twilight, and is a vampire movie. It has the actor who played Cedric Diggery in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I am super excited to see him in something else, cause he was awesome in Potter.

Tears, pain, and acomplishment

Hola peoples. So I am exhausted! I didn't get like any sleep last night and I had to wake up to do 2 hrs of drawings of my hand. I had to do a blind contour for an hour!!! Of just the outline of my hand. It was torture. Drawing class has really been a lot of work. I actually got really overwhelmed and emotional in class. When it came to making real drawings of stuff the teacher sets up, I felt I was the worst in the class. I didn't know where to begin or how to really size it all out. The teacher came to correct me and I felt pretty embarrassed and he kept coming to help me and hardly no one else. I just felt like I sucked super bad. Then yesterday in class I still felt uneasy about drawing and we had to spend the whole class drawing this assemble of stuff on a mini stage. I was of course overwhelmed and the teacher came and saw how I was starting and was correcting and helping me. I felt like an untalented chump and even started to tear up, which only made me feel even more silly. But the teacher gave me really good advice and it took me a long time and it was a lot of measuring and fixing, but I actually made a pretty good drawing. It was a little small and the shadows weren't as dark as they should've been, but it was pretty damn good for one of my first major drawings. I left feeling very excited, pleased, and hopeful. Today we had our first nude model. I was nervous that I would make the model look awful on my paper, but it was okay. I used what I had learned and did some okay gesture drawings. The teacher did come by and offer some help, but today I was happy for it. I think I will actually improve and make some cool things in this class. Unfortunately, I have some boring, hard, time consuming homework this weekend, but oh well. I also heard that there is an awesome scanner on campus, so I am gonna try to find out more and maybe I will be able to post some of my work.

sleepy drawing

Alright, so today I am super sleepy. I didn't get enough sleep because I had to get up early to work on some homework for my drawing class. In class we worked on gestures and contours which I suck at. And tonight we have to draw a contour of a plant for 3 hours! ugh!! I live an hour away from campus, so that taken a couple of my hours away a day. I believe my husband and I are going to go to good ol' wally world to get some groceries, come home and make dinner, and watch a movie while we eat. Then its plant time. It's been a busy, but not very interesting day.

Not so much

So today I haven't done a whole lot yet. I slept in until noon. I started trying to do homework, but was interrupted because I had to get ready to leave. We planned a dinner with my parents and my grandpa Johnson at Red Lobster. I am currently awaiting my husbands arrival home from work and then we are off. However, surprisingly he is still not home. I bet he is milking the clock, which my dad will be pissed if he was purposely staying late. Oh well. Anywhoo, I need to try to work on my homework some more. I am taking beginning drawing right now, and in the summer B section I will be taking beginning painting. My homework is to define vocab and draw or paste a picture example of the term. yawn! And it is taking longer than I expected. Oh well, back to work I guess.

My husband

So here's the deal with my husband if you don't know much about him. I met him while I was staying with one of my sister's in Illinois. I got a part time job at walmart in fabrics and crafts thanks to my brother-in-law's mom. Abraham worked full time in the GM (General merchandise) backroom. He was a superviser over the unloading crew. I remember seeing him in the breakroom and I thought to myself that he was pretty hott. The first time we spoke I had some trash to throw away after putting up new frieght so on my way back to the sales floor he passed me and said, "I like your hair." He continued walking very quickly, so I didn't even have a chance to respond. But I was taken back and was like, "wow, a hott guy complimented me!" haha. So I wondered about him from time to time. I liked working in the backroom organizing the overstock and working old frieght because it was boring on the sales floor, plus I often got a chance to peek at Abe. He helped me with boxes a couples times and we had some very short converstions on occasition. Then we actually spend time talking about ourselves and stuff over a break. It was the first time I really found out much about him. Shortly after that he came and asked me if I wanted to go hangout with him and some of the guys from work at a poolhall. So I said sure. I was definately excited. I remember texting a friend, "OMG, a hot guy just asked me out." So I drove where he told me it was and since I never played pool, I just leaned on a wall. But I talked with everyone there a lot. I felt like Abe was definately flirting with me a lot. All in all I thought it was a good night. However, we didn't start dating and there were issues. The next week all the guys who were there asked me if I was going to go again, because it was a weekly thing for them. I told them that I didn't know, I was waiting on an invite from Abe. One of the guys openly liked me and tried to tell me that Abe wasn't that great of a guy and said that he invited another girl to go. So I definately wasn't going, but I was shocked. Abe was acting like he really liked me, but asked out another girl. He also told me that they were teasing Abe about liking me and he claimed that I wasn't his type, that I didn't have a nice enough body and etc. However to this day Abe denies ever saying that. He thinks that the guy just said that so I wouldn't like Abe. I don't know which is true, but it doesn't matter anymore. After that Abe starting asking me to go bowling and renting movies and hanging out. That went on for a while, and we were "just friends" hanging out all the time. Then, he was staying at my house one night and I asked him if he was ever going to ask me out; that we like each other and had been hanging out for months, come on already. And thats how we became a couple. Things weren't going well at my sisters however. I was working and going to school so I didn't have much time to work around the house and they weren't happy about that. So a couple months after Abe and I started going out I decided that I needed to move back home to Florida, because I had out stayed my welcome at my sisters. Abe and I decided to continue dating, and he said that he wanted to move to Florida when he got his AA degree. He drove down to Florida with me and loved it and it was hard for us to part. I flew there for a short trip after a while. But after a couple months he dumped me. He gave some weird reasons and I was devistated. I decided that I was going to fly up there and find out for sure it was over. Looking back on it it seems a little irrational, but it was worth it. We actually got back togther before I got there so they trip was like make up time. He said that he just couldn't stand being without me, it was too hard on him. But we toughed it out. He came down from Christmas and I went there for valentines day. He finally said the L work on V-day. And then he finally moved to Florida that summer. And the following spring we got married. We didn't have the money but didn't want to wait, so we had a court house wedding and decided we would have a big wedding for family and friends when we had the money. He really is a great guy and puts up with a lot of crap from me. I can tell that he truely loves me, and I feel like I am truely lucky to find one of the good guys.

He is also a full time student at USF. He is trying to get a masters in architecture. He also works a very hard job at a warehouse. He wants so badly to make all my dreams come true. I love him so very much.

The purpose of Life

"The purpose of life is a life of purpose."
-Robert Byrne

Shocked by CSI!

Okay, so I couldn't watch the CSI finale when it aired because (as you may have read) I went to the movies with Jimmy. So I watched it tonight and I am sooo shocked!! ---Quit reading if you haven't seen it yet and plan to--- After all the drama of Warrick maybe being a killer, they killed him! ugh!!! I was already crying when I had to see him in such pain when he didn't know if he did it or not, but I suspected something had to happen when that guy came to the car. What a A$%h@%*!!! But I think there is a chance he survived if Nick runs out in time. A very very slim chance I know, but here's hoping. I mean this season we lost Sarah and Warrick! Thats too many main characters to lose!!! And now we have to hope that the CSI's figure out that their boss is the bad guy, but I bet it will take the entire season for them to get the evidence on him. Well it was a good season finale, I am just sad that we had to lose him! Now whos going to be causing the drama within the dapartment, I mean since Cathrine's mob dad is dead she doesn't have drama and with sarah and warrick gone there's no one to cause problems. I mean Nick is always the good guy who always knows better than to cause problems... I don't see any other drama makers. I guess there could be new people or maybe they'll make Nick or Greg have issues. Only time will tell I guess.

This is me and my husband Abe!

Baby Mama, friends, and games

So my restart to the day has gone well. I went back to sleep and when I awoke no one was home. It was great because I need time to wake up, I am usually a little cranky in the morning. Last night I went to the movies with my best friend Jimmy. We say 'Baby Mama'. It was very funny. I predicted the ending, but I would still recommend it. After the movie we walked to the parking lot and stayed there for a while talking. We laughed, we cried, we had a much needed talk. It was great because we used to have talks like that all the time, but we both have been pretty busy and haven't had the chance to do that in a while. It was a good night. However, I almost made my husband late to work because he had to drive my car to work. Luckily he called just in time for me to make it home.
So today I totally plan on vegging out. Watching TV, playing video games, just relaxing. And yup I play dorking video games. Thats all thanks to Jimmy and my husband, Abe. But I know who I am. A girlie girl who likes pink (the color), faeries, shoes, musicals, and dorky video games. Oh yea, and I am a big Harry Potter fan. I just like a huge variety of things. So there's another peek at me.

bad start and a little info

So usually when I start some kind of journal or in this case blog, where I speak about myself, I always feel the need to give a huge back story. So that new stories won't be confusing and to help establish who I am and where I am in my life. However I am simply not in the mood for that right now. I will get to that, but I just woke up and am a little cranky. Especially because I was woken up way before I had enough sleep. And not to a nice start either. My dad called and was yelling at me about finding my mom. It was rather annoying and on top of that I had to seriously go pee, but I couldn't because my dad was yelling at me. So the day hasn't started great, but I think I will try again. I'm going to go back to bed and then see if the day starts off any better. But I will start a little of my back story now.

I am 23 years old. A college student at the University of South Florida. I am married. And my husband and I are currently living with my parents.... well we are renting a room in their house. So that's it for now. I'll probably write more later today because I am excited about this.

Starting

Okay, so I decided to start a blog. Hurray! hehe. I will use this space to say whats on my mind, vent, express myself, and let everyone know whats going on in my life. Right now I just got home from a night out with my best friend, Jimmy and its 4am, therefore I am going to bed. I just wanted to get this started. More to come soon.